Two years ago I graduated from the Beautiful You Life Coaching school. I felt so ready to start coaching. I wanted to be a business owner so bad. Today I sorted through some papers and found my “Year in Review 2017” and I got very curious.
One question was: How did you deal with challenges?
I sought help. I failed and tried again. I sought help and failed again.
But every time I got back up. Like Thomas Edison, who invented the light bulb, once said: I have just found 9’999 ways how not to build the light bulb.
In 2013/2014 I did a further education in graphic design which led me to Marie Forleo’s B-School early 2014. I wanted to use these skills and make money. I got to know some of today’s “gurus” and bought more courses, started using WordPress, learnt a lot of things about email marketing, webinars, eBook design and all the stuff you “should” be doing as an online entrepreneur.
You know what? I have never made a dime from this knowledge. The first paid service was maybe 2017 or so when I designed a flyer for someone. All this knowledge is in my head. I have spent thousands of hours behind my screen learning to change code on a website, build websites with WordPress, deepen my skills in graphic design, help others for free more times than I can count.
I have never had the courage to charge for my services. When I started studying to become a life coach, I felt this could be something that I can make a living of.
I am a person who loves being of service. I have never expected that the past two years would be the most challenging years of my life. Not only in my personal life, but also in business, mindset and life in general.
- I have beaten myself up for not living the “entrepreneurial dream” and still work a full-time job.
- I have beaten myself up that I couldn’t grow my business in 2018 even though I reduced my full-time job down to 4 days a week.
- I have beaten myself up for going back to work 100% in 2019.
- I visited a therapist almost bi-weekly for 3 years straight.
- I booked coaches who brought me forward.
- I passed my karate belt exam which was the most challenging event ever.
- I have spent thousands and thousands of dollars on different courses, coaches, systems etc. from which I haven’t got any return on investment.
There are so many more lessons. What I’d like to show you with this is that my journey isn’t linear. I got seriously depressed and burnt out working 43hrs in my day job, attend karate two times a week and trying to have a flourishing relationship with my partner and my friends.
I always thought working hard and telling other people I am working hard will be the key to success. No, it’s not! You can’t see how many times I texted my biz bestie that I wanted to quit. I wanted to give up my business. I do not even have a business because I am not producing income.
You are not alone with these feelings! Sometimes all we need is support. Someone who will be there for you no matter what. My biz bestie is someone I share a win but also my deepest fears. A coach is a bit similar who will be here for you to support you with your goals.
Back in 2017, I felt so ready to coach. But in all honesty, it is only now that I truly feel ready. I have learnt so many lessons that have taught me resilience, patience, compassion and so much more.
If you keep just one lesson from this post: Please be aware that you are 100% enough. We are happily ever evolving (thanks Kayla). We are here to do great things. If you need help with a goal, please apply to one of my coaching series. I am happy to be here for you.